Out of Weariness…into Standing Firm

         This week has been a tough one.  I really don’t know why; there was nothing particularly challenging, or tough just an average week.  I find the average weeks are the ones where I feel weary the most because on a busy week or a challenging week, you have obstacles to overcome and really have to lean on God to pull you through even though most times I try to lean on my ability and understanding turning to God at the last second.  On the average week, it is easy for the enemy to creep in and deceive or discourage me.  I don’t even see it coming, but before I know it I am questioning everything in my life and I am depressed.  The enemy I am referring to is Satan.  He is looking to destroy what is good and of God in this world including you and I.  Anything he can do to distract you, pull you into sin, indulging in your selfish desires, and make you question what you are doing in life.  Why do I even give him an ear?  Why don’t I listen to God’s voice and his calling on my life?  However, I listen. 

        This week the enemy had me wondering if what I was doing in this life is good, is it advancing the kingdom of God, are you making an impact in your students’ lives, are you being a good husband, does my life matter.  All lies that I deal with on a regular basis, and struggle with.  I know I don’t need people’s approval to be validated, but I crave it.  I have to fight this craving, and look to God’s word to see who he is, who it says I am, and what I need to be doing in my life.  The fight was intense this week, but I finally battled back instead of rolling over in defeat or depression.  I am weary…but not giving up. I really took today to connect with God, listen to his voice through looking at the bible, and listening to an encouraging message from Francis Chan www.francischan.org .  This is what hit me:  “Do not grow weary in doing good, but in due time, you will reap a harvest.” Gal. 6:9 I have heard this verse over and over in my life, but today had fresh meaning and encouragement.  It was just what I needed to hear.  I needed to be reminded that God is watching, he knows my deeds good and bad, and in due time I will reap what I sow.  I want desperately to reap a harvest of good for God, to impact his kingdom eternally.  I can’t due this if I give in, I can’t do this if I listen to the enemy.  I was encouraged to continue fighting for good, for God through being a student minister, and in due time God will bring a harvest of young people who love him more than anything who are turning their schools upside down. 

         I need to be faithful in the here and now, following God, and loving others while God works out the details and how things will play out.  I need to focus on my role, and let God do his. I need to have long obedience in the same direction, I need not grow weary but fight for good, and God will work it out in his timing.  I need to trust, I need to believe, and I need to live out what I believe while claiming the promises of God.